A New Way of Thinking

Quite awhile ago (we won’t mention how long) my life was a mess. I was drinking too much, working at a waitress job I hated with every fiber of my being, and everything that could go wrong, did.

I hated the way my life was, so I started reading every self help book I could find. While many had some good valid points, overall, there wasn’t any one in particular that I wanted to follow.  In fact, I would not recommend following any one else’s plan verbatim.

I gleaned what I liked about a variety of other people’s ideas and kind of developed my own way of thinking.  I knew I had to change my life, because it really sucked and I could not see it getting any better.

The first thing I needed to do was take a long look in the mirror as an objective observer. I did not like what I saw. I blamed everyone for the way things were going, except the main person who was responsible. ME!

This is probably the hardest thing a person can do, but when you do it and decide to make the necessary changes, things will start to turn around. I promise.

The day that things really started to change for me was when I was driving to that God awful job of mine.  I literally had to force myself to keep driving, then something hit me. I turned off my path and went to sit by the river to sort things out. A voice inside my soul kept telling me that if I went to work that day that I would never get out of the rut I was in.  I tried praying and crying, because, after all, I had a kid to think about. I was living with my sister in a very small house. We get along fine, but I knew I was getting on her nerves. Yet I just could NOT go back to that job!  I drove back home and called in, telling them I had another job and would not be back.

I didn’t like lying, but I couldn’t help myself.  After that I called a temp agency to see if I could get something.  The next day I was sent to my first office job, since graduating from junior college with a degree in Business Management.  The tide had turned.

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